I'm Freaking Out

Nano is a matter of hours away. And I'm freaking out a little.

Today, I went through storyfix's Story Structure Series, scrambling to make my story better before I actually start writing tomorrow. Again, things have changed. I'm kind of nervous as I start second guessing myself and my characters. I start thinking, "Would so-and-so really do that? Maybe not...." And I kinda want to go crazy because I start writing tomorrow!

I'm also going in with only 30 scenes planned out. I hope I develop more as I start writing. Because I really don't think every scene will be at least two thousand words long. This is where a part of me starts panicking, imagining myself out of words to write partway through November.

I guess what any of us can do is just relax and go with it. The other choice is completely throwing out what you've got and wallowing in self-pity the rest of November because you didn't have the guts to follow the story where it wanted to take you.

You can only plan so much of the story before you write. You also have to be open to any kind of reasonable change that might occur. For example, so far I've been thinking the MC is going to kill off one of the characters in the story, someone he is really close to but must teach a lesson. But if partway through the novel, I discover that he wouldn't really do that, I guess I have to adjust the novel. Keeping my characters true to themselves is more important than sticking to what I have planned out. 

How are you feeling as we embark on November 1st and Nano '11? Are you feeling anxious as well because the story is getting a mind of its own or isn't fully developed? Or are you cool as a cucumber because you're either pantsing it or you've got your outline working perfectly?